Head in the game...

I have been blessed the last month with 2 kick ass vacations! I have spent time with friends, I have seen parts of the United States I have never seen before and made some great memories. With all that said my healthy lifestyle has paid the price. I did okay on vacation #1, I held my own and came out in the end with a loss. Vacation #2 is a different story. I had such high hopes for the week and truly had NO reason to not be in better control over my choices and actions. I just tanked all my plans. I didn’t hardly workout, I ate ice cream, I ate breads and pasta, and I drank alcohol. Those darn power hours in the pool will getcha EVERYTIME!

In the past I would beat myself up over it – I am actually okay with my week. Yes, I gained but hell I had fun!!! NOW…the hard part is getting back in the game. When I say I took off last week, I mean I took off. I had VERY limited cell phone service, I didn’t log into the computer, I didn’t log my food and I hardly wore my body bugg. I was on true R & R! Again, I am okay with all of this but now I am back to reality and I am struggling to get my head back in the game.

I do know this: I have 4 lbs. to get off this week. I have weigh in next Tuesday and I have to be 4 lbs. (secretly would like more) to get off my body. I know that in order for this to happen I need to get my butt moving and my diet has to be on point. My diet is not an issue but getting my body moving is a mental struggle. I don’t know why this is, I feel better after I do it. This is such a mental journey – our minds are so damn powerful!

I figured if I put forth a game plan here and checked back here and had others hold me accountable, I may just not struggle so darn much.

*1200-1400 calorie diet everyday
*8000-10,000 steps a day
*Workout everyday – I have things to do Tues and Wed. evening but I need to get up those mornings at 4:30 so I can get a workout in before work. I need to figure out what I need/want my calorie burn to be at on the bugg. I would love to reach 3,000 calories burned but damn it is hard and I haven’t figured out what all I have to do to reach that yet!

5 Things Friday

Hmmm, this may be fun! 5 random things you may not know about me. Anybody that does know me, knows that I am ALL ABOUT THE RANDOM!

1. I love my friends like family.

2. When meeting a guy (like date worthy) I always look at this ears. If he doesn't clean his ears, he doesn't clean other things... :)

3. I love the beach.

4. I'm a hotel snob.

5. I love roadtrips!

Also, check out me and Mo's post at Skinny Scooper's.

Body Image...

Today was a random day of a little of this and a little of that. I went to the store today and started talking to the owner - she is a cute thing, about the same age as me. I am not sure how we got on the topic of working out but she asked me where I worked out. She said she went to the same gym but that she was super intimidated. She mentioned the muscle heads and all the super cutesy girls who are ultra fit. It made me think because quite honestly I never t hought about it too much but I thought she would be one of "those" girls. She was telling me how she doesn't like to go alone and that she has horrible body issues, etc. Don't get me wrong - I am self conscience. I am intimidated by the classes (failure to keep up) but as far as walking in there and working out - I don't give to shits what everybody thinks. Yeah, so I'm the fat girl working out - so what! I told her the same thing.

It just got me thinking that it doesn't matter what size you are, how long your hair is, how fit you are, how many friends you have, etc. Our minds are wicked powerful and can truly distort reality. I have had several people as of late say to me "I wish you would see yourself, the way that I see you..." That is super powerful and kind of hurts my head a little bit when I think about it too much, but I hope through the process of this journey to fitness and weight loss I am able to obtain that clear picture that others see of me.

Do you see yourself the way that others see you?

Exciting stuff...

I have some exciting stuff to share but I don't want to put too much up here because I am moving! My new home should be ready soon thanks to Mr. Nomorebacon!

Mo and I have been chosen!!! For what you say? Go check it out over here at SkinnyScoopers - now that is some exciting stuff if I do say so myself. I will be blogging over there once a week and trying to keep up here (well not here, but at my new home) as well more frequently. I think the next 24 weeks is going to be exciting. I think that documenting it and be consistent with everything will bring great things.

June 1...WHOA!

I can't believe it is June 1! I know you have heard it from people around, where has the time gone? I swear time is flying. I had a great weekend with some great folks. Saw some great movies (my favorite), shared some giggles, pool time, shopping, eating - good stuff! Having a new month just seems like such a fresh start - it really isn't but it seems like that, so I am going to run with it.

This week is going to be crazy busy since I have to work at the second gig 3 days and I am leaving on vacation next Wed. evening. I am going to try to stay focused on working out, eating clean and just doing the right thing and not stressing about anything. I am feeling good about my choices and what not. I wish the weight was coming off quicker but I also know that I have been making progress and I worked out hard everyday last week. Sunday was my only not so great workout day, but I still did something and that is a victory if you ask me.

I mentioned that this weekend we went to the movies - I also mentioned that the movies is one of my favorite things to do. Funny thing is I am not a huge fan of movies at home simply because I can find 1 million other things to do PLUS if I sit still too long I fall asleep. I prefer to go to the movies early in the day and I prefer to go solo. I know that is WAY weird...but I like it. Kelly said it best this weekend - "I don't mind going to the movies with you guys but that is because everybody know's the rules!" LOL We say "Just Wright" with Queen Latifah and Common. It was cute, not award winning but cute. "Sex in the City 2", it was okay. Some funny parts and I love the girls from Sex in the City and I love me some Mr. Big but the movie overall was just okay. We also saw, "Letters by Juliette" - again cute story. Predictable but how can you not love a love story? All the movies prompted some interesting dinner conversations - as good of friends as we have been through the years it was funny to hear the conversations and the different opinions. The concensus was made that I am like Carrie with a little bit of Charlotte, if you haven't seen Sex in the City you have no idea what I am talking about if you have seen it - I'm not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing.

All that talk about movies makes me think about one of my all time favorite movies...I am a sucker for a dumb comedy, I love them but sometimes a girl just wants an old romantic movie. "The Notebook" does that for me. I love the story, the old love, the for better or worse...it makes me cry, laugh, and daydream. One day I hope to have somebody love me like Noah!

I always kid with my friends that the damn movies screw up life for us - because we always have unrealistic expectations but I think no matter what I will always be a hopeless romantic.

What is your favorite movie and why?

Compassion...

This week has been a strong week. I have logged many hours in the gym and I have recorded my food and stayed consistent with it all. I feel strong. Strong is a good place to be! I am going into June with a feeling of accomplishment and tremendous strength. The scale is cooperating a little, but not like it should and that is okay right now. I am making good choices and I know if I continue to make good choices good things will come.

Anybody that knows me knows that I am random – so you can appreciate this. One day while I was at the gym I had Oprah on the t.v. I couldn’t hear the t.v. because I was rockin’ out to my tunes but I could see the images. From what I gathered her designer for years (whom I met a few years back – cool guy) was leaving. I guess he really has no choice because Oprah’s show is ending, but like I said I couldn’t hear the show so I really don’t know, but it is neither here nor there. WOW, I just went off on that – let me regroup and get back to my point (yeah, there was a point).

They were showing clips of Nate through his years on the show. For those of you that don’t know Nate lost his partner in the Tsunami of 2004 and his life understandably so was forever changed. While watching these clips I saw him hugging some victims from Hurricane Katrina and even though I didn’t know why he was there, and I couldn’t hear the words being exchanged I saw the raw emotions, I saw the action. The love and compassion exchanged was intense. It wasn’t just a friendly pat on the back it was a hug you with every ounce of love I have - and it just really touched me. It made me think.

All too often we are rushing through our lives and we as a society are conditioned to not care about people too much and especially not strangers. I consider myself pretty compassionate, however, I fall into this rut as well. I hope to work on this and truly try to have more compassion for mankind.

I am very blessed with a great group of people around me. I have some of the best friends a girl could ever ask for and just recently I have met (and still getting to know) some of the most amazing group of ladies. I am proud to call each of them my friends and further more I am overwhelmed with gratitude for being chosen for them to be a part of MY life. I don’t know what I did to deserve such greatness around me! Not really sure where this post was going, but just a reminder to be gentle with your judgments – you don’t know where the person next you has been, but you may just be able to make a difference of where they are going.

To receive great things, we must give great things! I believe that deeply!

Sunday Blues

I have no idea what my issue is but today I woke up with a huge case of feel sorries for myself. I know this too shall past but today it feels like it is the worst feeling ever and if I am being honest, I can't wait for today to be over. I have to wake up in a better mood tomorrow!

ENOUGH OF THAT TALK!

I was telling a friend the other day that I was feeling strong. I was starting to feel like an athlete again. Lifting has inspired those feelings. I am looking forward to working out and doing some more lifting this week. I will definitely be recording those results and feelings.

I really thought I had a bunch to say when I sat down to blog and I just realized I don't! BAH HA

This week I am looking forward to good choices, strong workouts, SATC 2, time with the girls, Biggest Loser finale! What are you looking forward to this week?