Old Habits Die Hard...

Old habits are hard to break. On Sunday I woke up early (as I always do) and put on my workout clothes and was ready to hit the gym. It was a beautiful cool spring morning and I ended up riding up to get my car washed before I went to workout. And then the unthinkable (old habits) returned and I found myself in the damn McDonald’s drive – thru lane. I ordered a Sausage McMuffin with egg and a small coke. I will not lie – it smelt so good. I opened it up and took a bite, hmmm! Then I had a moment of clarity and had a little self talk. What the hell was I doing? I had justified it to myself because I had worked out all week and the scale was moving in the right direction. ARE YOU SERIOUS? I ended up throwing my McDonald’s away. Wow, so glad I was able to gain control. I enjoy healthy food, I really do – so why did I even go there? It disgusts me, but I’m not going to spend too much time thinking about it. I just hope I can continue to remain in control. I know that being in the car is a big trigger for me. I know that I need to add fast food joints to my “forbidden” list – simply because I am not strong enough at this point to make good choices when I go to those places. Do you have a forbidden thing? Something that you just can’t trust yourself around?


I then took myself to the Battlefield to walk. I parked near the old Stone House and hit the trail. The hills kicked my ass, but I loved it. I sure would not have won any races but I did it. I kept on bartering with myself. “Okay, see that cannon up ahead – make it to that point, you can do it!” I would make it to the cannon and then chose a different point. I got this! I kept on thinking of my goals and I felt strong. I felt empowered. I forgot all about the McDonald’s. As I was walking back to my car I passed a nice lady who was saying her rosary we exchanged a “good morning” and she stopped and spoke to me about the trails in the area. She was very nice and very informative. She also said something to me that I know she didn’t even realize it meant anything to me but it did. She said – “I go hiking on this trail and over on this trail” and I then realized (duh!) DUDE I’M HIKING, that’s what’s up! I want to be a hiker, I want to climb mountains! Dream BIG!

I got this!